assalamualaikum..

what an exhausting day i had yesterday...herm..alhamdulillah..i get back my phone..x mau ckp pjg..malas..

just wanna say..im glad to have it back..

alhamdulillah..

=D

its ur day,my lil bro..

assalamualaikum..

haloopp..

alhamdulillah..dah besa adik akk sorunk nih...suppose post this entry yesterday..sory..i cant make it..=)..hehe..and lil bit sad cuz akk xde nak celebrate burfday ajad...adiah nanti ek,ajad..hehe..ajad maintain gemok ek..hekhek.....akk syg ajad..

umi...i need u..

ummi..i need u...
blurrr..apap...

ajad and apip..akk syg korunk..

assalamualaikum....

herm..ape nak ckp ek?? blur...teman nad tido kat umah dye..and kiteorang meredah ujan nak gi klinik..huishh..susah kott..umi..let me drive....pliss...=)..hoping..nape buat sye nanges lg?? herm...yeah..u not intend to..but seriusly..i really hurt when u asking those kind of quest..im fat!! flubby!! plummy!! do u get me?? susah sgt ye nak terime org gemok and BESA??? someone pliss answer me..fine..syg?? haha..u got be kidding me..entahla..i dunt knoe..we never meet and entah..i admitt syg tu ade..tapi..entah..bukan i x trust in u..not like that,dear..but..haha..entah..im confusing ryte now..kite akn jd 19..tapi there still long journey for us ryte?? ryte,people?

i just hoping that there is someone who can accept me the way i am..really hoping....herm...yupyup..and

ummi..i miss u..nak pelok ummi...

assalamualaikum..

hai..malas nye nak get up..okie2..i had told CI bout the incident..herm..and the security came..

herm..

just wanna say

sye xkan bedendam dgn awk..sye just nak tau siape yg amek..if awk nak amek,amek la..sye x kesah..mgkn bukan rezeki sye..ade hikmah..sye tau..and sye maafkan awk..

=)..

i lost it..

I WANT IT BACK!!!!

assalamualaikum..

today..im in morning shift..alhamdulillah..herm..i done the sponging..and also change the diapers...kinda hard..i also clean up the parinium care..oh..gosh...im shaking,people... =) haha..thats experience...

and the sec thing..i've lost my phone today..dunt ask why..i x mintak bende ni jadi..la tahzan..i know there have reason why this happening to me..herm...syg sgt handphone nih....

herm......

sponging

assalamualaikum..

haii...alhamdulillah..i had done my very best..yeah..kinda nervous..gosh..i had to sponge male patient..ohhh...how? how?? really nervous that time..luckly my CI is kind and the patient also understand my situation..thank!! hehe..i also do the showering for the nenek..hehe..really like her..=)..and the bed making..main buat kott..haha..alhamdulillah..evrything was just fine today..
=)..need to improve..be more confident and need more practise!!! yeah....

thats all..

=D..

sye.aiza.awk.kite.mereka

assalamualaikum..

haii..yesterday was my first posting on the ward..herm..adat la tuh nervous..herm..and tired jugak not like in cssd b4..staff nurse kinda arrogant..ugh!! am i care?? ok laa...but today no seniors will guide us..herm..just now i had view the bpr,temp,pulse..hope i could answer it if CI ask..the person still not say hi to me..herm..i dunt knoe..try to be friend..but her?? still like that..aiza penat..knape org buat mcm ni kat aiza?? pliss..aiza penat sgt nak mengalah..

aiza rindu kwn2 dulu..dyeorang x penah wat mcm ni kat aiza.. ='('' ema..jie..daya..ika..alya..jue..kuya..mijah..kite rindu korunk..herm..

life getting hard nowdays..sometimes i feel like giving up...nurse?? herm..its hard..yeah..i knoe..permulaan..semue susah..nothing come with easy way..tapi.........entah...

and when say bout feeling..makin lame ..makin syg..and hati makin lalai..yeah..just 0ne month..but like it had been long time i know him..i knoe..im just 18 teen..tapi..hati xleh dipakse..kan?? sume berhak disygi..tapi..dah sampai ke waktu utk tu,aiza??..ask urself.....

thats how life are....challenging..hurting others...love...adat la tuh....

but truly..i need ummi...

='(''...

hati yg nangis...

awk...

satu kata bertulis cinta

telah merasuki

tak urung cinta tersentuh

hanya ku rasa

dan jika wujud yang menjelma

pada sebentuk hati

bukankah itu amanah

dari yang kuasa
menjaganya, menjaganya

wahai insan yang di sana

mungkin saja ini kau dengar

melewati semesta ini

aku sampaikan

begitu ingin berbagi batin

mendengarkan asa di jiwa

oh tuhan

pertemukan aku

sebelum hatinya beku

thx..

assalamualaikum..

i wanna say syukran or thank you or terima kasih to my dearest lil fren here..u always remind me..thx..=)..even sometimes pedas..but..its okie..i dunt mind..i love it..cuz i feel there are someone still concern bout me...btw..i pon dont knoe what i feel towards him..and at the same time i knoe kelalaian itu ada....herm....

thx,dib....

assalamualaikum..

hai..
where to start..herm..okie....can i say GTH to u..can i?? ugh..its hush..i knoe..but..truly..im fed up with u,my dear frenzzzzzzzzzzzz.....whatever..thats all i can say..

semalam..ummi ayh send me to shah alam..herm..then,before they left me..umi mcm berat nak lepas kan...i dunt knoe...pelok akk sampai 2 kali..herm..lame la jugak..my tears nak drop..tapi..tahan jer..then..same goes to ajad..herm..n unbelievable..afaf pon hug me..haha..ade kemajuan..

herm..

akak da besa..tanggungjawab akak makin berat utk dipikul..akak ank sulung..byk akak kene fikir..umi..ayah..adik2..diri akak sendiri..i need to score for this sem..aiza..jgn ckp je..belaja..ugh..that is my prob ryte now..malas nak bukak buku..i dun knoe..y?? herm..

aiza..

assalamualaikum...

i just reliase just now..what happening to me??? herm... i had change to somebody..im not the old..yeah..we must change ..but not sooo drastic..i dunt knoe how to express it..but..trulyy..deep in my heart..im different..there a lot of aspect that we can see..or people see..herm..im changing..i dunt want...mane aiza yg selalu pelihara hatinye dari terleka?? mane aiza yg selalu jage hubunganye dgn ALLAH..?? mane aiza yg selalu jage setiap patah kata yg keluar dr mulutnye?? mane aiza yg rajin dulu?? aiza....what happend?????? wake up,dear...( try to motivate myself)... herm..anybody..any advise??? herm....

time to change to be better person..
use the time to revise..
use the time to fokus..
use the time to know ALLAH..

pelihara hati...
pelihara akhlak...

....

assalamualaikum..

hai..the 3rd day of posting..kinda tired..but seems like time past so fast these days...perasan x?? herm..idk what i feel ryte now..hermm..rendah diri?? ugh..4get it....im gaining weight..thats my prob..thking how to lose it..exercise?? no time la...tahan makan?? herm...have to?? i knoe..some people might like it if i x mkan lgsong..kn,awk?? ugh..tenss...with practical..far from famly..miss themmm..=(.... herm..i knoe..people can say whatever they want or like the most..but who cares?? like i care?? but sometimes..yeah.....kinda fed up with those people..next time discuss..yeah..im wrong too in this situation..but..entah la..nowdays for me..family are everything..okie..i also dunno what i merepek ryte noe..i penatt..k..k..need to rest and have a nice nap..

=D

salam..

1st day of posting

scrub attire..
me and ifa

sape comey??..hehe

me,dinesh,eliza and christin

18,18,18,24


assalamualaikum..

hai,people..

=) alhamdulillah..everything was fine today..KINDA...hekehek..suppose that thing use to cover up our shoes..but us?? haha..put it at the head..haha..sory..we dunt knoe...first day of posting..herm..we have to change our clothes..cover up our head..ugh..im sooo sooo soo..tens..herm..cannot wear tudung..only scarf..ugh..annoyed..sume terdedah..huh!! herm..today..a lil bit relaxing for us..ya la..no patients..only instruments..=)..tomorrow?? idk what..the staff are ok..hope so..early morning..we had briefing from miss...erm..cant remember her name..tomorrow i found out..k?? our works its just folded up the blue plastic..and chat....first day la katekan..hekhek...we all sang..im yours..the show..westlife..bsb..hekhek..with ealiza and dinesh..chatt..chatt and chatt....and we realize its already 2..hooorayyyy!!! bailk..haha..so balik umah..nak TIDOOOOOOOO!!!...

haha..but then...arrived je ixora..tgk2..bilik kunci...ya ALLAH....i xde kunci!!!!!!!!! so..kol en anuar..x pick up..send msj..x reply..so as the konklusinye..aiza and ifa..pecah bilek!!! haha..baek punyer...janji dapat ,masok..kan??

hekhek..agak keretakan di situ..but..who cares??? hekhek..

my fever become worsttttt..huhu..penedol?? i cant take it..allergic with that..so how?? tahan je la,kan?? hekhek..ok2..thats all for today..

salam..

=D

p/s: thx to u guys..K,A,D...always support me..and to ummi and u guys!!

muaxxxx....

=D

assalamualaikum..



hai..woahh..getting up late this morn..letih kot plus im ill..herm..not in gud mud..boleh dikatekan agak bad..tapi x show off...its ok..my tears drop..xde org tau..xpe..im still ok..herm..nape asek mengeluh? herm..tgk notes..xde mud nak revise..kepale pening..telan penedol..feel better after that..housemate tgh full house..xde mud nak join..dah kol umi..ajad nanges kelmarin..herm..sian dye..i miss u too,syg..tapi..akk jauh..akk rindu nak buli ajad..herm..ummi..i need u now...herm...akk tau i have my responsiblity..herm..esok posting..nervousssssssssssssssssss...
herm..baju x iron..ugh..xde mud..sok bgn kol 4..waiting for the bus pukul 5 45 am..herm..

haha..ok2..im kinda geli hati dgn ini budak..

awk..kwn2 sye sume xnak gf nurse..

hekhek..

laa...nape?
ye la..

nanti awk gi keje,sye masak..

nanti sye nak tido,awk keje...

nanti sye balik keje,awk xde..

haha..

ade sampai ke situ dye pk..

aduii..

lawak2..

xnak gf nurse,sudah..cari laen..

tul x??

=D..

ok2..back to the topic..

im really freak bout tomorrow..

Ya ALLAH..

herm...

aiza sayang K...

assalamualaikum...

im back!! again...(sigh)..im not in mood...hermmmmmm.....arrived at 9 plus plus.....hati sebakk sgt bile tgk muke ajad..dak gemokkkk...and pelok umi..nape ye?? herm...adat la kan berpisah...tapi,..kenape rase laen sgt?? herm..

dye serius mlm nih...

agak ketakutan di situ..

hekhekhek...

aiza..

asal senyum2??

hekhekhek....

=D..

dye nk sye syg dye..

herm........

lebih???

bukan 50%..

tapi...

100%...

biarlah mase menentukan nyer...

pcye pada takdir ALLAH.dear..

Forgive me,sahabat....

assalamualaikum..

alhamdulillah..sye masih lg berpeluang utk menulis di blog ni..ok2..ayat2 yg akn digunekan agak melankolik..hekhek..so,up to korunk nak proceed bace or not..cuz this is my blog.am i care what people say?? haha..

herm..

aiza dah berubah?? am i?? kept wondering n questioning..i dunt knoe..herm..salah ke sye berubah? satu perubahan yg baik or buruk? entah..sye pon x tau..herm..but..i can feel it..

I HAD CHANGE!!!...

i admitt..i've change a lot..dari segi hati,perasaan,my behaviour..herm..

to all..esp my friends...and esp to u:

dear...kite tau kite rapat dgn kmu dulu..and skg nie kite da lame x contact kmu..i admitt..

its my mistake..maaf..im not intend to do that..sometimes..kite sebok..yeah..BUSY..its not an excuse,dear..i really mean it..herm..terpulang kamu nak fikir ape..kite agak terase bile kmu ckp kmu dilupekan..

dear,kite x penah lupe kwn2 kite..and when i asked u back..y?...kmu refuse nak cerite..y?? im still ur friend..bukan hanya kawan..tapi sahabt..kite harap kmu faham ape yg kite cube ckp..

maaf lg sekali...

kite manusia biasa...kite x mampu nak jage hati semue org..and jgn penah anggap kite berubah,dear...

maaf lagi sekali,sahabat...

i miss the old moment...

i miss the old

...aiza....

assalamualaikum..

hai,people..just back from joho..u..sori..x berkesempatan nak jumpe..insya ALLAH..ade rezki,kite jumpe ye..=) ingat..percaya pada takdir..hekhek..this morning,went to snap my pic..wear uniform..hekhek..cute..and get one nice jab....

need to revise..im nervous bout the practical..

herm..

many things to say..

but..

herm...

its okie..

can keep it myself..

im ok..

=)

assalamualaikum..
hai..

=) how u guys today? ok? anything nak share? hekhekhek..im ok today..this morning we had to demonstrate the counselling..so alhamdulillah...we from group 4..miss parimala praise our good effort..haha..alhamdulillah..suke..and proud too..ok2..dah..hekhek..and alhamdulillah once again...=) i had done my best in the comm exam..alhamdulillah..and tomorrow will be the A and P exam..gosh..pening..aduii..bile nak habes?? nak balik la..then last paper is envi..

herm..

ok2 x baek mengeluh..

gtg..nak pegi pasa malam..

=D..

assalamualaikum...
hai,people..

im okay today..just tenss...gosh..bile nak balikkk?????? huhu....memang headache....exammm...ugh..ya ALLAH..im not suppose mengeluh kan??..today class end up around 5 15 pm..having an english exam..seriusly..memang pening mase wat..like wanna give up..100 quest,dear..xpe..sabar..and today was the last FON class..hermm..seriuss..i really nervous..bout the posting..

ok..proceed to another story..umi dah balik mersing..envy..haha..sabtu ni akk balik jugak..
next..many things to thinkk..feelings?? yeahh...its not the right time for me to think bout this..im just 18,dear..x expert pon lagi..give me some space and more time cuz hati and perasaan bukan boleh main2..am i right??and i ada hak nak choose who is the best for me..perjalanan masih jauh..

hermm..this nite ade discussion...plus..sok ade exam and present..